Therapeutic Cabinet Cleaning

Well, the good news is that I am on points so far. The bad news is that I have only 2.5 pts. left for the wild hungries tonight. I have gotten in 48 oz. of water, too. I am finding that it is soothing and easier to drink no-caffeine beverages like Suiss Mocha fat free, sugar free instant coffee and herb teas. Its a winter thing, I think.

I got super bored this afternoon and so I cleaned. I cleaned out a cabinet in the kitchen and also my coffee pot (ugh!) and the counter. All were badly in need of cleaning. I have a bag of stuff to give away and my cabinet is well organized but it makes me wonder about the deeper meanings. I typed up an inventory list so that I don't buy things I don't need. Jim was sure I had gone round the bend. I had double Splenda and double containers of prunes. I discovered that I have five types of flour: semolina, brown rice, oat, blue corn meal and all purpose (the wheat flour is in the freezer) as well as 5 kinds of dried fruit and 7 kinds of tea.

Some of the stuff I got rid of was related to the Potatoes Not Prozac diet that I tried for a while. I couldn't do it because I had to eat too much food--very high protein! It also violated principles outlined in the previous blog: I was eating stuff I didn't like.

Some stuff, like all the flours, must be for recipes I had and didn't get around to trying. Some stuff, like the tea and the dried fruit, I have partly because I like them but also because I think I should be drinking tea instead of coffee. I am giving away the green tea that is supposed to be so good for you because I don't like it. I got sick from some green tea in China (must have been a dirty cup) and haven't been able to drink green tea since. But I kept trying. Now I am moving on.

The planning thing is working well. I have a set breakfast and a set lunch. My evening meal alternates between two dishes that I made earlier plus my favorite mixed vegetables. Another thing that works well is that I really don't have much that is not good for me around the house. I have been working on this seriously since July 1 and half-assedly before that. My cupboards are beginning to show it.

I did buy food I shouldn't have over the Christmas holidays but I wound up giving stuff away or throwing it away. I should say throwing half of it away because I did indulge. I have to lose 1.5 lbs. to get back to pre-Christmas weight. I gained more but it is already gone. Some of the eating wasn't worth it. It was me being a little kid saying: You can't make me not eat this!

Unfortunately, I do have some forced dieting in my past. My mom used to give me a bad time and in the convent, I was forced to diet with someone watching me. No wonder I left. So doing this to please myself and because I love myself is important. I work hard on giving myself positive messages, praise and pep-talks.

I got an e-mail from a friend, who shall remain nameless, that had lots of self-hating things in it. She doesn't deserve to be treated that way. She is a lovely and loving person that I respect. Give yourself a hug, girl!

Well, my own personal battle now is should I go water walk? I only did 15 minutes of physical therapy exercises, weights and stretching this morning but I really don't want to go out. I think I'll walk in place for a while and call it a day.