New Routine

I am going to switch to a morning blog/check-in. I am much more thought-full in the morning and I can accurately report on the previous day. Even though I may be walking into walls, I am a morning person, at least as far as mental processes go.

Maybe that partly explains why evenings are so bad, food-control-wise. I lose all motivation around 4 o'clock. "Why do I have to do this? Why does it matter? I want to eat what a I crave, not what is planned or wholesome." If I could figure out and tame that mechanism, I could make a fortune.

To approach the problem scientifically, I should start with observation. (I should start with a valid sample size, but just me will have to do). So today, I will journal all my impulses. Do not worry, dear diary, I will spare you the details. That is what Word is for.

[Pause to let a barking Bingo out--maybe this is why I haven't blogged in the morning before. Morning drama.]

I just kinda lost it yesterday. Not totally. I ate thoughtfully but not nutritiously. I knew what I was doing; I just did it anyway. I had been craving candy corn, so I got some and ate it. Ostensibly, I had stopped at the store for vacuum cleaner bags and fresh spinach. At first I journaled everything I ate but then I just let it go. Food circles started: the candy corn was too sweet--I needed a bagel and cheese to clear my palate. That could have gone on indefinitely with bagel-mouth craving something else but I didn't do that. A minor victory. I was tired so I went to bed instead of eating more (at 8:15), another minor victory. I noted the fact that I was really inactive and kinda achy. All pieces of the puzzle.

Today is another day. Finnegan, begin again. We are deep in the budget preparation/annual report time of year at St. Mark's, definitely a stressful period, and I need to go work on numbers some more. Aquasize tonight and then the vestry meeting.

[Pause to deal with barking Loki. Coffee is finished. Start the day.]