About 5 years ago, I found a meditation teacher for myself and embarked upon the path of mindfulness mediation. Then I stopped. It is time to start it again. It is one of those things that you know you need but it is so hard to start. Like exercise. It is, sort of, exercise turned inside out. Practiced non-movement. So if getting started exercising (focused movement) is hard to do and meditating (focused non-movement) is hard to do, what are we left with?
I am dropping out of a music theory class. For a lot of reasons but one is that I don't think it is bringing me any closer to the music. You can analyze a Bach cantata and never listen to it. What's up with that? I once took a volunteer position cataloging an astronomy library somehow subconsciously thinking it would bring me closer to the stars. I needed to just go outside and look. But then that became hard to get started. I got some good binoculars but I live in the city so you can't see much and I'm afraid to go somewhere isolated by myself (and so on, with a variety of excuses). So, for some reason, it is hard to turn on the stereo and listen to the music I want to get close to. It is easier to sit in a chair and watch mindless TV or read science fiction/fantasy books than it is to focus on real life. I don't have to read a book about Bach or about meditation or about exercising. If I really want those things I should just do it. I am fully prepared. Just commit.
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